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08 February 2017 @ 09:39 pm
[The Real LJ Idol Season 10] Week 8: No Comment  
I often don't realize what I should say until later, well after the fact.

"Actually, I kinda got stuck in class staring at my goal sheet. Stigma doesn't actually really come up in the goal I'm focusing on in-class because so many people at my church are open about struggling with mental health issues. That's actually one of the reasons it's one of the few places I consider my community."

Usually I say it has to do with my learning disability, but it's not just that. It's also personal and cultural. I'm a wallflower, I'm softspoken. I prefer listening sometimes, especially if it's a topic of interest to me (or it's something I think I might be able to synthesize into something new).

However my silence doesn't mean I don't have opinions or ideas. Get me comfortable and talking (preferably about something I have an interest in) and you'll find that I can talk up a storm and probably won't stop talking and I have lots of ideas gathered from research, and listening to other people.

This year, I'm trying to stretch, to actually be vocal about my opinions because this is a crazy world we're living in, and well, I'm trying to be more visible. If I want to be a published author, a resource-bridger, and a real change agent, I have to learn to speak up to create and be those things.

This was written for therealljidol Season 10 Week 8: No Comment.

This entry was originally posted at http://dreamwriters.dreamwidth.org/37880.html.
Shadow Wolf Byrdshadowwolf13 on February 9th, 2017 05:53 am (UTC)
penpusher: Writer by <lj user=tygerx>penpusher on February 9th, 2017 09:27 am (UTC)
I think at least some of us are drawn to writing specifically because it doesn't require being clever instantly, and because it doesn't require having to speak up. In fact, the best writers are listeners.

Good thoughts!
adoptedwriter: pic#102963215adoptedwriter on February 9th, 2017 04:19 pm (UTC)

Speaking up via writing it speech is brave and hard to do.

rayasorayaso on February 10th, 2017 11:33 pm (UTC)
Being an introvert in an extroverted world is very difficult. I hope you are successful in making yourself heard.
Raised by Wolvessinnamongirl on February 13th, 2017 08:16 am (UTC)
Kudos for challenging yourself to speak up and be a "change agent" (a phrase I really love, by the way, hadn't really thought about those two words together).
dee_aar2dee_aar2 on February 13th, 2017 05:31 pm (UTC)
I write for the very same reasons ... to be heard silently. I have so much difficulty communicating through spoken words while written they just come out like an uncontrolled jet.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2017 08:05 pm (UTC)
I think many of us know the challenges all too well of speaking out loud "in the moment" rather than having a chance to think about something and perhaps compose a thoughtful presentation in writing.

I wish you success in stretching yourself this way-- any amount is a pretty big deal when it goes so much against who you are. :)

veritasveritas_st on February 14th, 2017 02:07 pm (UTC)
"I prefer listening sometimes"

Oh my lord me to. Its amazing how much you can gauge from a group by listening and its even more amazing how many people dont realise that!

Lovely piece.
Murielle: Scrunchedmurielle on February 16th, 2017 04:56 am (UTC)
You have a voice! And you use it every time you write. I learned a long time ago that my strongest voice is my written one. Maybe you're like me?

Being visible, and being heard, like everything else takes time. I wish you the very best of luck in becoming who you want to be.
Teo Sayseternal_ot on February 16th, 2017 02:28 pm (UTC)
*Hugs* all this is very relate-able. All the best for all that you are aiming for :)
baxaphobiabaxaphobia on February 16th, 2017 03:13 pm (UTC)
Good luck with your being more vocal. It's hard to do if you are not used to it!
mamas_minionmamas_minion on February 16th, 2017 08:13 pm (UTC)
Writing is a good way of speaking out if you you have a hard time speaking up in company. good luck to you in being more outgoing.
Jenmy_name_is_jenn on February 16th, 2017 10:32 pm (UTC)
I'm the same way. Very soft spoken, but if I know you well enough and we get on a topic I'm passionate about, I can talk for a long time.