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23 November 2016 @ 05:55 pm
[The Real LJ Idol Season 10] Week 1: I need the struggle to feel alive  
Sweet merciful cupcakes, this is not going as planned!

2016 has been one hell of a year. If you're into woo-y stuff, 2016 is considered a 9 universal year. 9 years are basically about the transformational power of endings -- "one cannot heal the past, if they don't eventually let go of it".

It's been a year of tough global and local shifts and realizations and in some cases, deep loss. The struggle is real, but it's also a birth, a choice. For me it's been a really interesting transition and something of a practice for my own personal 9 year in this coming April.

I pulled out the default trio of decks I use for one of my Welcome to Night Vale inspired tarot spreads this morning, asking what I needed to know and the reading came up as follows:
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[image description: A tarot spread of what should be a 9-card block. The top row is of cards from Danielle LaPorte's Truthbombs Volume 1 Deck is overlying thoughts which tend to represent edgy truths to consider, the middle row of cards is from Sonia Choquette's Trust Your Vibes oracle card deck which represents actions that can be taken, and the bottom row of cards is from my Yu--Gi-Oh! TCG playing card oracle deck, which represents thoughts feelings and actions underneath the actions and truths to consider.
Middle Column - Center cards: Stay in your own skin & Let Go, bottom middle card: Reverse Trap, Top Middle: Recalibrate what you're willing to compromise on & Absolutely everything is progress (Reversed)
Left Column - Center Cards: Mentors and Role Models & Call on your Joy Guides, Bottom left card: Soul Exchange, Top left card: Your life purpose is what you say it is (Reversed)
Right Column - Center Card: Talk Shop, Bottom Right: Dark Assailant (Reversed), Top Right: We know each other]

I interpreted the reading this way:

Focus/main action: Stay in your own skin & let go. Underlying thoughts to main action: beware the reverse trap -- take care that for the time being there will be opposition. Overthoughts on the main action: recalibrate what you're willing to compromise on; maybe consider that not absolutely everything is progress.

Things to do to help you perform main action: call on your mentors, role models and joy guides. Underlying thoughts to this action: remember that there is always an energy exchange. Overthoughts on this action: consider if your life purpose might not be what you say it is.

Actions to consider performing after you get in your skin and let go of what no longer serves: talk shop. Underlying thoughts: Consider serving for Justice and what is right. Overthoughts: Remember that those who remain know each other.

With the upcoming season and a new year soon enough, there's a lot of things to think about and consider.

And I can't help but reflect on how hard it is to make the choice to do these things. It's hard to be the person in the room who stands up even when things are terrifying. To be the writer who will go where other writers fear to tread. To be the change I want to step into.

(This was written for therealljidol Season 10, Week 1. If you missed it, our home game introduction is back here)

This entry was originally posted at http://dreamwriters.dreamwidth.org/35247.html.
Lisameridian_rose on November 25th, 2016 01:11 pm (UTC)
Another Tarot related entry. This could be a very interesting Idol season! To be the writer who will go where other writers fear to tread. A worthy ambition/goal.
marlawentmadmarlawentmad on November 25th, 2016 09:00 pm (UTC)
You have my attention with talk of tarot and Welcome to Nightvale; my, oh my, do I love that podcast!
Kellykajel on November 25th, 2016 11:47 pm (UTC)
I love that last sentence. Nicely done.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on November 27th, 2016 08:46 am (UTC)
I just recently noticed that Night Vale had a Tarot deck, though I wished they were showing close-ups of all the cards. I definitely recognized Tamika Flynn on one of them.

consider if your life purpose might not be what you say it is.
This one... a challenge to admit it, if it's true, and what might be undone or wasted in past effort if it is?
dmousey: pic#125576541dmousey on November 28th, 2016 03:00 pm (UTC)
Love Tarot, and Runes. I always wanted to know when I was younger, now- not so much. I enjoyed this. Hugs and peace~~~D
Murielle: Scrunchedmurielle on November 28th, 2016 06:46 pm (UTC)
As Ghandi said, "You must be the change you want to see."

A very wise man who walked the talk all his life.
Jenmy_name_is_jenn on November 29th, 2016 12:44 am (UTC)
Sweet merciful cupcakes, this is not going as planned!

Does it ever go as planned?

I love how you ended this. It really IS hard being that person.